My mom

My mom and Emily

Sitting here reading my friends myspace blog, talking about how her mother drives her completely insane now, but thinks about the past and how much she misses her moments with her mom, gets me to thinking about how things have changed with my mom.

Growing up, I was always such a mommy's girl. I went EVERYWHERE with my mom. Poor woman never had a moment of peace! I couldn't even spend the night at a friends house until I was 8 because I missed my mom!

Then, I turned that dreadful age...13!! How my parents didn't kill me or at least hurt me during those years is beyond comprehension! I got past that age and was back to myself by 15 I could guess. My mom worked at the high school I attended. Most kids would hate to have their parent work there. I LOVED it! How convenient it was to have my mom there to get money when I needed it, borrow her car when I wanted to go to lunch with friends, get a note to get out of class....as long as I had an A and wasn't missing any assignments!

Then, I graduated. Always relying on my mom to do everything for me had came to an abrupt end. I had to make my own doctors appts.! That was so wrong, or so I thought at the time! I was still living at home, my mom couldn't still take care of me?! Being an adult really sucks! Then, there is this period of life that I try to forget about sometimes, but it was my rebellious period. Wanted to gain my Independence, do what I wanted, I decided to date the one person they couldn't stand. Don't get me wrong, I got a beautiful daughter out of it, but the dumbest thing I could have done to try to gain my Independence. I learned so much within those 2 years of my life, and given the chance, I would do it all over again...just probably get out of the relationship right after I found out I was prego!

My 1st Mother's Day

My mom and I are close again. Now that I am a mom, I can understand her more. I call her for any small question, and can't wait to tell her what is new with Emily. I look forward to my phone calls from her. I know I haven't been the greatest daughter and haven't lived the life that she layed out for me. I must be completely frustrating to my parents at times and probably give them a few headaches along the way. But I know they love me with all of their hearts as I know they know that I love them. They are not just my parents, they are 2 of my best friends now. No, we don't always agree and we do get frustrated with each other, but that is life. I am so thankful for the life they gave me and made me the person that I am today. I hope that one day, I can be half the mom that my mom was to me. So Mom and dad, if you are reading this, thank you for everything and I love you both so very much.

4 Generations