Babies

I have to admit, when I pictured my life, I always imagined having 3-4 kids, enjoying my pregnancies and cuddling with my babies. When I was pregnant with Emily, I was miserable! I had morning sickness 4-6 times a day for 8 months, wasn't very uncomfortable but oh so very tired. I was HUGE with her even though she was only 7lbs 3/4oz. With Kara, I had no morning sickness, but had crazy heartburn the whole time (she did have a beautiful head of hair!) I was very uncomfortable during the last few months of pregnancy, but I hardly showed until the last month. I even wore my regular jeans into the hospital! Still, the dream of getting married one day and having 1 or 2 more babies was always my dream. Then I met Greg who had 3 amazing kids. My love for them grows and grows every day still. I feel like they are my own. 4 kids running around and all of their activities, I am exhausted! Still, the talk of having just one more baby comes and goes. Pros: We would have a baby together and have a product of our love for each other. Cons: Our youngest is 8 and all of the little birdies will be out of the nest in 10 years! That will give us time to travel and do whatever while we are still really young. Greg and I are never on the same page about having a baby. When I feel like I would like one more, he doesn't. When he is wanting another baby, I don't! Our friends are all for us having a baby! For the most part, I think that I have made up my mind about NOT having another baby, but there are those moments and sometimes days, that I would love to have just one more. Even have it planned out on where the nursery would be, work schedules, etc. And then a Monday rolls around where 3 out of 4 kids have activities going on after school and I think to myself, "and I am thinking about having a baby to throw into this craziness?!" We are still officially undecided. Greg is set on having one at the moment, he just wants to get through the summer madness of running a business in a small coastal tourist attraction, and then the subject will be seriously approached. I love my kids and I love my life, but to add another one to the mix or not...this is where we stand! But, in all fairness...I do make beautiful babies!